Tuesday

I am being such a bitch today because I'm fucking starving and all I want to do is eat and entire pizza and throw it up.


Food today:


Egg and cheese sandwich
Ham sandwich
Corn
Few candies
4 cokes
spaghetti


This morning I weighed 226.8.  My first ACTUAL weight loss in a while. I've been eating at "normal" times, 3 main meals, and a snack. For the past few days, and it actually showed. Which I'm happy about. I got DDR and that shows me how many calories I burn when I use it. Which is fun, and active. :) I'm seriously about to go eat some spaghetti and purge though. I just need to feel full.


Mike was so mad about me purging. He said I "have a problem". :( It made me feel really bad. Tomorrow I'm going shopping with my mom, and I'm sure she's going to want to take me out to lunch. UGH. So I'm gonna have to try to get something small, and "healthy". At least something with protein in it. And NO soda. It just sucks because any time you go out to eat it sets you back at least 400 calories. 


I'm going to spend the rest of the night showering, shaving, and reading a book. Emerald is really fighting going to sleep, so I think its probably going to be a long night of wake ups. I'm hoping she'll pass out for the night soon though. But, its only 8:30. Feels later.